IF ONLY

If only I knew you  too soon,
Mybe you will still here..
If only I met you that time..
Maybe you will stay here..
If only I could tell you the truth,
Because now I'm so lost..
If only I could talking to you..
Because I know that you want to..
If only I could stay for one more minutes..
Because I would love to see you one more time..

If only I could stay..
If only I could meet you..
If only I could see you..
If only I could be your..
If only I could..
If only I..
If only..

Goodbye Forever

They laugh,
While I cry.
They point,
As I die..

Insinde, I come undone.
I am here with myself.
I'm the only one,
In this world..

I'm unforgiving, for my sins.
The pain I have caused others.
Is where it all begins,
In my mind..

I have alreday gone.
The sun has set over my life
i will not see another dawn
So this is goodbye..

Forever.

Hurt Words

You should know, bullying hurts.
It starts with one word, one word you blurt.
Fat, ugly, worthless.
These are the words they hear.
Did you know, your their biggest fear?

Day by day you torment them,
It takes so long for their hearts to mend.
All the ask for is one true friend,
But you make them want their lives to end.

Eveeryday they wake up with regret,
All they want to do is forget.
It's not just hitting and punching,
It's the words you say,
They hurt so much, they want to fade away.

This is when enough is enough,
They're sick of playing strong,
Sick of playing tough.
But they can make it through,
You may not have known,
But they always knew.

They put on a fake smile and pretend they're okay.
They believe they can make it all the way.
Of course your words still offend,
But they have been pieced back together again.

Someone leaves the crowd and lends them a hand,
They learn that it's time to stand.
Their smile is no longer fake,
Now they have no reason to ache.

You see, all they ever needed was a friend,
Someone to stand by them when the bullying came again.
Now they are free,
The insults barely sting, don't you see?

The bully is never wanted, unless wanted to leave,
The person you bullied now has no need for long sleeves.
Your work here is done,
Not that it should of started,
Now who's the one who feels broken hearted?

Bullying gave you power,
That they refused to give,
You can't help but wonder "what if".
What if they didn't get so strong?
What if they were crumbled all long?

What you don't think of, is what could of been,
what if they pulled the razor to their skin?
What if you pushed them too far,
To were they tied a rope around their collar.

What if they wrote down all the secrets they had to spill,
Right before taking an overdose on the pills?
You don't know what could you of been done,
You were doing that it all for fun.

You think they're losers, but they're stronger than you,
Have you seen what they've been through?
With your words you gave a black eye,
They are leaving, bully,
So say your goodbye.

But one more thing before you go,
Did you enjoy my little show?
Remember, words can hurt more than the punch,
Believe me now?
Cause this was just a hunch.

1 AM

I am like everyone else
I wonder why no one understand me
I hear the whispers
I hear 'em laugh
I can see the cruel jokes as I pass by
I pretend not to hear

I am like everyone else
I feel all alone
Will they ever see?

I touch lives of everyone around me
I dream of happier times

I am like everyone else
I understand that people are different
I hope everyone else will see
I try to be the best I can be
I am like everyone else

.B.U.L.L.Y.I.N.G.

B - Brutal beatings beyond the feeling of pain

U - Understanding this hurt might get me closer to being sane

L -  Love is a myth

L -  Life has become like a work of Stephen King

Y - You don't know what it's like

I  -  I am treated like just some "THING"

N - Never to be kissed, comforted, or loved

G - Going the rest of my life never to be hugged

Even Though We're Far Apart

Even though 
we're far apart
I always have you in my heart
to here
to now
till that day
I loved you so why did you fly away

god said she was ready
I disagree
god took her in his hand
and said to me

she is needed up here
she won't be far
when you hear her name
you may not laugh

then he went up to heaven and
off she went
even though she is happy
my heart got bent

she watches me as I cry
she watches me when I succeed 
everyday I wonder why
why my sister had to die

but then I'm told 
she is now free
to live her life
in eternity

she has her life
ahead of her
but even though she's gone 
I can finally breathe firm

it was wonderful friendship between her and I
remembering it now makes me cry
you think of her sorrow you think
of her pain

now just remember she is healthy again
he took her away to a better place

you hurt my sister
I hurt you  face

THE DEVIL

I sit here alone
But the devil is upon me

My thoughts so cold
And the devil is me

Not a soul in sight 
The devil will kill me

Breathing steady tonight
The devil is ready for me

Not scared of death
The devil is waiting for me

Ready with my knife
The devil is watching me

The blade at my throat
The devil is killing me

Cut long and deep
The devil laughs at me

On my death bed
The devil whispers to me
"Is it a crime to kill if it is your own life you take?"

Am I Selfish?

Every day a waiting game 
We watch we wait
Our lives have become you 
It’s hard not to be selfish.

We put on our brave faces 

But when the doors are closed our emotions show
We say life goes on but really we are all stood still.

We wait for news but imagine the worst 
In silence we ask why us why now? 
It’s hard not to ask why me?

Although your home it’s only the beginning 
Six weeks it’s going to get worse 
Life will get hard
How can I not be selfish?

00:01am ( I AM)

No one needs me.
No one care to me.
Im a ghost.
I am Nothing.

Life..
What for?
Im gonna die.

Death..
Im a ghost, right?
I am nothing.

People stay away from me.
Im all alone.
They look at me,
Just a while.

I think that they know me.
But im wrong.
They passes me by.
like they just saw dust.
Or just a wind.

Yes..
Im a ghost. 
Im a dust.
Im a wind.
Im nothing.
Im unusefull

And I am going to disapear..

UP IN THE SKY

When you are down
And you want to get high,
Just take a good look
Up in the sky.
What you will see
Are the stars above,
And all you need
Is to proclaim your love.
Who you will find
And see so clear,
Are friends in mind
You want to hold near.
Whenever you need them
Just look up high,
Call their name
And see them fly.
Every friend you meet
Owns a star
And you can see them
No matter how far.
Whenever you are down
And want to get high,
Just take a good look
Up in the sky.